you become a mother.
A totally different person.
Less carefree than you will ever be
for the world will feel a scary place at times.
Happier than you will ever be
because those two little eyes have changed your life forever.
Each little toe and each little finger are more precious than all the diamonds in the world.
Each First is a wonder.
A smile, a wiggle, a laugh, a step, a word.
Each day is a milestone.
You love your first baby with a consuming love.
You fear being separated for more than a few hours.
You struggle to understand what was the point of life before motherhood.
It is the hardest exam that you have ever faced
and no amount of preparation can prepare you for it.
You constantly doubt yourself because you want the best for your baby.
The first illness brings you to tears.
You want to take the pain away from your baby, but you can't.
The first trip to A&E shows you that you're stronger than you ever imagined.
Your first baby changes you forever.
You will never be who you were before.
Your second pregnancy feels less special.
You are trying to bond with your unborn baby,
but your child needs you more.
When you see the first scan of your second baby
you doubt that you could ever love another as much as you love your first.
For nine months you imagine what life will become for your first child.
You squeeze her a bit tighter, you reassure her that all will be OK.
When you hold your second baby in your arms for the first time
you truly embrace motherhood.
You know what is to come and you are not scared.
You want to savour every moment.
Your second baby is the missing piece of your family puzzle.
You did not miss him when he wasn't there,
but now that he's here, it is as if he was always meant to be.
The second baby makes everyone better.
He teaches the parents to enjoy the baby days.
Not the milestones, but the ordinary.
He teaches his sister to share her parents love
and he makes her more loving in return.
The first time your two children meet
they stare happily at each other.
That moment will be etched in your memory forever.
The noise of those silent stares is deafening.
You can hear your heart expanding inside you.
You love your second baby with organic love.
You love him without fear.
You love him in a gentle way,
less all consuming, more real.
You thank your first born because
she has taught you to be a mother.
You thank your second born because
he has taught you to enjoy it.
When you see your children staring adoringly at each other
it takes your breath away.
When you hear your children making each other laugh
your heart skips a beat.
When you witness one of your children helping the other,
when you spy them playing happily together
you pray that you created a friendship that will last forever
even when you are gone.
You know that your family is complete.
You know true happiness for the first time.