It turns up that my grandfather's death less than a week ago, was nothing in terms of bad news compared to what I am dealing with right now. A couple of people very close to me are going through hell as that is the only word I can use when cancer is involved.
In these cases one can only wait, in agony, just wait. Wait for the verdict. Wait for what's next. Having a child means that I have to do the anguish part of the waiting in my own time as it has to remain all smiles and fun when Little Miss G is around. She has picked up on something nonetheless and her behaviour has been even more fractious. Just what I don't need right now.
I am writing this post because I know that soon things will be clearer and hopefully better and I just want to remind myself, and anyone who is reading this, of a simple truth. Health is all that matters. Most situations can be fixed or changed, but, without health, all the other issues become so irrelevant. When all my family and friends were in good health I still found a million of things to worry about. Right now 80% of those issues seem so utterly irrelevant. I wish I could turn back time, count my blessings and be more content.